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Universally acclaimed, rapturously reviewed, winner of the National Book Critics Circle Award for autobiography, and an instant New York Times bestseller, Chanel Miller’s breathtaking memoir “gives readers the privilege of knowing her not just as Emily Doe, but as Chanel Miller the writer, the artist, the survivor, the fighter.” (The Wrap).”I opened Know My Name with the intention to bear witness to the story of a survivor. Instead, I found myself falling into the hands of one of the great writers and thinkers of our time. Chanel Miller is a philosopher, a cultural critic, a deep observer, a writer’s writer, a true artist. I could not put this phenomenal book down.” –Glennon Doyle, #1 New York Times bestselling author of Love Warrior and Untamed”Know My Name is a gut-punch, and in the end, somehow, also blessedly hopeful.” –Washington PostShe was known to the world as Emily Doe when she stunned millions with a letter. Brock Turner had been sentenced to just six months in county jail after he was found sexually assaulting her on Stanford’s campus. Her victim impact statement was posted on BuzzFeed, where it instantly went viral–viewed by eleven million people within four days, it was translated globally and read on the floor of Congress; it inspired changes in California law and the recall of the judge in the case. Thousands wrote to say that she had given them the courage to share their own experiences of assault for the first time.Now she reclaims her identity to tell her story of trauma, transcendence, and the power of words. It was the perfect case, in many ways–there were eyewitnesses, Turner ran away, physical evidence was immediately secured. But her struggles with isolation and shame during the aftermath and the trial reveal the oppression victims face in even the best-case scenarios. Her story illuminates a culture biased to protect perpetrators, indicts a criminal justice system designed to fail the most vulnerable, and, ultimately, shines with the courage required to move through suffering and live a full and beautiful life.Know My Name will forever transform the way we think about sexual assault, challenging our beliefs about what is acceptable and speaking truth to the tumultuous reality of healing. It also introduces readers to an extraordinary writer, one whose words have already changed our world. Entwining pain, resilience, and humor, this memoir will stand as a modern classic.Chosen as a BEST BOOK OF 2019 by The New York Times Book Review, The Washington Post, TIME, Elle, Glamour, Parade, Chicago Tribune, Baltimore Sun, BookRiot

Chanel Miller
August 18, 2020
384 pages

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WINNER OF THE RIDENHOUR BOOK PRIZE / THE DAYTON LITERARY PRIZE / THE CALIFORNIA BOOK AWARDBEST BOOK OF THE YEAR in PEOPLE | NEW YORK TIMES BOOK REVIEW | WASHINGTON POST | NPR | PARADE | TIME |  GLAMOUR | CHICAGO TRIBUNE | MARIE CLAIRE | ELLE |  FORTUNE | LIBRARY JOURNAL | KIRKUS | DAILY MAIL| BALTIMORE SUN | SHE READS | MAN REPELLER | BOOKRIOT | SPY.COM “She has written a memoir that converts the ongoing experience of sexual assault into literature…Beautiful.”─The Atlantic“To tell her story at all is enough…the fact that Miller tells it beautifully, caring enough for her reader to spin golden sentences from her pain, is a gift on top of a gift.” ─Vogue”Know My Name is an act of reclamation. On every page, Miller unflattens herself, returning from Victim or Emily Doe to Chanel, a beloved daughter and sister…Know My Name marks the debut of a gifted young writer. Miller’s words are purpose. They are maps. And she is a treasure who has prevailed.”─Jennifer Weiner, The New York Times“In this powerful, gutsy memoir, Miller—the sexual assault survivor in the Stanford case—reclaims her name and her story.”—The New York Times Book Review”Know My Name is a blistering, beautifully written account of a courageous young woman’s struggle to hold a sexual predator accountable. Stand back, folks: This book is going to give a huge blast of momentum to the #MeToo movement.”─Jon Krakauer “She writes exquisitely of her pain, makes us feel every fragment of it, but also expounds on the kindness that nourished her spirit…Miller matters. Readers will see every victim matters.” ─USA Today “In a perfect world, Know My Name would be required reading for every police officer, detective, prosecutor, provost and judge who deals with victims of sexual assault.” ─LA Times”Miller is a gifted storyteller…Know her name, know her voice.”─The New Yorker“Miller provides one of the most moving and humanizing depictions of sexual assault I have ever read…Know My Name features the kind of intimate, coming-of-age storytelling that you don’t find in a typical story about a crime and its aftermath. She lets us see her in quiet moments and jubilant ones, in moments of doubt and moments of strength…In giving us the gift of knowing her, Miller has written a singular testament to the human cost of sexual violence, and a powerful reminder of why we fight.” ─The Cut “In a world that asks too many survivors to keep their experiences to themselves and shrink their suffering to preserve someone else’s potential, Know My Name stands unapologetically large, asking others to reckon with its author’s dazzling, undiminishable presence. To read it, in spite of everything, inspires hope.”—The Guardian”I’d never read anything that so vividly paints the bewildering maze that a sexually assaulted woman faces…Know My Name raises crucial questions about the way we treat sexual assault and, indeed, sex itself.” ─Katha Pollitt, The Nation “In its rare honesty and in its small details, Know My Name is both an open wound and a salve, a quiet cry and the loudest scream…Know My Name is more than an indictment, though it is a successful and moving one. It is also an outstretched hand, inviting you to fight alongside her.”─Elle “Miller’s memoir is beautifully written, underscored by simmering indignation.” ─Jezebel “Compelling and essential…Miller reminds us that our stories are worth telling, that the names and the lives attached to those names matter.” ─SF Chronicle”Triumphant…Know My Name evokes a woman whose spirit hasn’t been broken—a study in what it means to strike back, not in revenge, but in reclamation.”—O Magazine”A stunning book…beautifully written.”—Teen Vogue“Unputdownable…A much-needed memoir giving voice to those who must be heard. Miller’s writing stands apart.”—Library Journal (starred review) “Miller’s new memoir echoes her powerful victim-impact statement… It’s a beautiful revealing self-portrait. It’s funny and it’s heartbreaking, and it’s an inspiration. There’s just no other way to say it: the writing is exquisite.” ─The Daily Beast”Miller’s memoir, Know My Name, gives readers the privilege of knowing her not just as Emiy Doe, but as Chanel Miller the writer, the artist, the survivor, the fighter.” ─The Wrap“Miller distinguishes herself not only for her resilience and fortitude, but also for her power of expression. She possesses extraordinary gifts as a writer.”─The National Book Review “Miller makes a powerful case for overhauling a system that retraumatizes victims of sexual violence even in successful cases, perpetuating the feedback loop that discourages victims from coming forward to seek justice.” ─Mother Jones About the Author Chanel Miller is a writer and artist. Her memoir, Know My Name, was a New York Times bestseller, a New York Times Book Review Notable Book, and a winner of the National Book Critics Circle Award, the Dayton Literary Peace Prize, the Ridenhour Book Prize, and the California Book Award. It was also a best book of the year in Time, The Washington Post, Chicago Tribune, NPR, and People, among others. She was named one of the Forbes 30 Under 30 and a Time Next 100 honoree, and was a Glamour Woman of the Year honoree under her pseudonym Emily Doe. Excerpt. © Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved. I N T R O D U C T I O N     The fact that I spelled subpoena, suhpeena, may suggest I am not qualified to tell this story. But all court transcripts are at the world’s disposal, all news articles online. This is not the ultimate truth, but it is mine, told to the best of my ability. If you want it through my eyes and ears, to know what it felt like inside my chest, what it’s like to hide in the bathroom during trial, this is what I provide. I give what I can, you take what you need. In January 2015, I was twenty-two, living and working in my home- town of Palo Alto, California. I attended a party at Stanford. I was sexually assaulted outside on the ground. Two bystanders saw it, stopped him, saved me. My old life left me, and a new one began. I was given a new name to protect my identity: I became Emily Doe. In this story, I will be calling the defense attorney, the defense. The judge, the judge. They are here to demonstrate the roles they played. This is not a personal indictment, not a clapback, a blacklist, a rehashing. I believe we are all multidimensional beings, and in court, it felt harmful being f lattened, characterized, mislabeled, and vilified, so I will not do the same to them. I will use Brock’s name, but the truth is he could be Brad or Brody or Benson, and it doesn’t matter. The point is not their individual significance, but their commonality, all the peo- ple enabling a broken system. This is an attempt to transform the hurt inside myself, to confront a past, and find a way to live with and incor- porate these memories. I want to leave them behind so I can move forward. In not naming them, I finally name myself. My name is Chanel. I am a victim, I have no qualms with this word, only with the idea that it is all that I am. However, I am not Brock Turner’s victim. I am not his anything. I don’t belong to him. I am also half Chinese. My Chinese name is Zhang Xiao Xia, which translates to Little Summer. I was named summer because: I was born in June. Xia is also China’s first dynasty. I am the first child. “Xia” sounds like “sha.” Chanel. The FBI defines rape as any kind of penetration. But in California, rape is narrowly defined as the act of sexual intercourse. For a long time I refrained from calling him a rapist, afraid of being corrected. Legal definitions are important. So is mine. He filled a cavity in my body with his hands. I believe he is not absolved of the title simply because he ran out of time. The saddest things about these cases, beyond the crimes themselves, are the degrading things the victim begins to believe about her being. My hope is to undo these beliefs. I say her, but whether you are a man, transgender, gender-nonconforming, however you choose to identify and exist in this world, if your life has been touched by sexual violence, I seek to protect you. And to the ones who lifted me, day by day, out of darkness, I hope to say thank you.     1.    I AM SHY. In elementary school for a play about a safari, everyone else was an animal. I was grass. I’ve never asked a question in a large lecture hall. You can find me hidden in the corner of any exercise class. I’ll apologize if you bump into me. I’ll accept every pamphlet you hand out on the street. I’ve always rolled my shopping cart back to its place of ori- gin. If there’s no more half-and-half on the counter at the coffee shop, I’ll drink my coffee black. If I sleep over, the blankets will look like they’ve never been touched. I’ve never thrown my own birthday party. I’ll put on three sweaters before I ask you to turn on the heat. I’m okay with losing board games.  I stuff my coins haphazardly into my purse to avoid holding up the checkout line. When I was little I wanted to grow up and become a mascot, so I’d have the freedom to dance without being seen. I was the only elementary school student to be elected as a conflict manager two years in a row; my job was to wear a green vest every recess, patrolling the playground. If anyone had an unsolvable dispute, they’d find me and I’d teach them about I-Messages such as I feel        when you       . Once a kindergartner approached me, said everyone got ten seconds on the tire swing, but when she swung, kids counted one cat, two cat, three cat, and when the boys swung, they counted one hippopotamus, two hippopotamus, longer turns. I declared from that day forward everyone would count one tiger, two tiger. My whole life I’ve counted in tigers. I introduce myself here, because in the story I’m about to tell, I begin with no name or identity. No character traits or behaviors assigned to  me. I was found as a half-naked body, alone and unconscious. No wallet, no ID. Policemen were summoned, a Stanford dean was awakened to come see if he could recognize me, witnesses asked around; nobody knew who I belonged to, where I’d come from, who I was. My memory tells me this: On Saturday, January 17, 2015, I was living at my parents’ house in Palo Alto. My younger sister, Tiffany, a junior at Cal Poly, had driven three hours up the coast for the long weekend. She usually spent her time at home with friends, but occasionally she’d give some of that time to me. In the late afternoon, the two of us picked up her friend Julia, a Stanford student, and drove to the Arastradero Preserve to watch the sun spill its yolk over the hills. The sky darkened, we stopped at a taqueria. We had a heated debate about where pigeons sleep, argued about whether more people fold toilet paper into squares (me) or simply crumple it (Tiffany). Tiffany and Julia mentioned a party they were going to that evening at Kappa Alpha on the Stanford campus. I paid little attention, ladling green salsa into a teeny plastic cup. Later that night, my dad cooked broccoli and quinoa, and we reeled when he presented it as qwee-noah. It’s keen-wah, Dad, how do you not know that!! We ate on paper plates to avoid washing dishes. Two more of Tiffany’s friends, Colleen and Trea, arrived with a bottle of champagne. The plan was for the three of them to meet Julia at Stanford.  They said, You should come. I said, Should I go, would it be funny if I went. I’d be the oldest one there. I rinsed in the shower, singing. Sifted through wads of socks looking for undies, found a worn polka-dotted triangle of fabric in the corner. I pulled on a tight, charcoal-gray dress. A heavy silver necklace with tiny red stones. An oatmeal cardigan with large brown buttons. I sat on my brown carpet, lacing up my coffee-colored combat boots, my hair still wet in a bun. Our kitchen wallpaper is striped blue and yellow. An old clock and wooden cabinets line the walls, the doorframe marked with our heights over the years (a small shoe symbol drawn if we were measured while wearing them). Opening and closing cabinet doors, we found nothing but whiskey; in the refrigerator the only mixers were soy milk and lime juice. The only shot glasses we had were from family trips, Las Vegas, Maui, back when Tiffany and I collected them as little cups for our stuffed animals. I drank the whiskey straight, unapologetically, freely, the same way you might say, Sure I’ ll attend your cousin’s bar mitzvah, on the one condition that I’m hammered. We asked our mom to take the four of us to Stanford, a seven-minute drive down Foothill Expressway. Stanford was my backyard, my community, a breeding ground for cheap tutors my parents hired over the years. I grew up on that campus, attended summer camps in tents on the lawns, snuck out of dining halls with chicken nuggets bulging from my pockets, had dinner with professors who were parents of good friends. My mom dropped us off near the Stanford bookstore, where on rainy days she had brought us for hot cocoa and madeleines. We walked five minutes, descended the slope of pavement to a large house tucked beneath pine trees. A guy with tiny tally marks of hair on his upper lip let us in. I found a soda and juice dispenser in the fraternity kitchen, began slapping the buttons, concocting a nonalcoholic beverage I advertised as dingleberry juice. Now serving le dinglebooboo drank for the lady! KA, KA all day. People started pouring in. The lights went off. We stood behind a table by the front door like a welcoming committee, spread our arms and sang, Welcome welcome welcome!!! I watched the way girls entered, heads tucked halfway into their shoulders, smiling timidly, scanning the room for a familiar face to latch on to. I knew that look because I’d felt it. In college, a fraternity was an exclusive kingdom, throbbing with noise and energy, where the young ones heiled and the large males ruled. After college, a fraternity was a sour, yeasty atmosphere, a scattering of f limsy cups, where you could hear the soles of your shoes unpeeling from sticky floors, and punch tasted like paint thinner, and curls of black hair were pasted to toilet rims. We discovered a plastic handle of vodka on the table. I cradled it like I’d discovered water in the desert. Bless me. I poured it into a cup and threw it back straight. Everyone was mashed up against each other on tables, swaying like little penguins. I stood alone on a chair, arms in the air, a drunk piece of seaweed, until my sister escorted me down. We went outside to pee in the bushes. Julia and I began freestyle rapping. I rapped about dry skin, got stuck when I couldn’t think of anything that rhymed with Cetaphil. The basement was full, people spilling out onto the orb of light on the concrete patio. We stood around a few short Caucasian guys who wore their caps backward, careful not to get their necks sunburned, indoors, at night. I sipped a lukewarm beer, said it tasted like pee, and handed it to my sister. I was bored, at ease, drunk, and extremely tired, less than ten minutes away from home. I had outgrown everything around me. And that is where my memory goes black, where the reel cuts off. I, to this day, believe none of what I did that evening is important, a handful of disposable memories. But these events will be relentlessly raked over, again and again and again. What I did, what I said, will all be sliced, measured, calculated, presented to the public for evaluation. All because, somewhere at this party, is him. Read more <div id="

  • As a sexual assault survivor who was raped and going thru the court system at the same time as Chanel, the Brock Turner rape case was inextricably tied to the ups and downs of my own recovery. I was her and she was me as the court system churned and slowly tortured us both. To be able to read her statement and see it gain global attention helped me immensely to put words to what I had experienced.Now I got to preorder her book, know her name, and support her. I read this book in about seven hours. It was like walking back thru the last 4 years of my own recovery in an alternate universe—Chanel’s universe. I found everything she said so grounding in its honesty. It was never unnecessarily graphic or gruesome for cheap shock value, but a rich and complex prose of how it is to be a woman and lose any girlish notions of safety or naïveté when sexual violence occurs.This is as accurate a portrait of survivorship as one can find and there are millions of portraits just like her walking around you everyday as 1 in 5 women experience sexual violence.Chanel is unique and beautiful and yet not unique as millions identify with her experiences. Please read and support this critical and multilayered analysis of her experience as she ties it to her childhood all the way thru several current political events of today.My boyfriend supported me for wherever I needed to be emotionally while reading this book, sleeping on the couch to stay in the room with me til almost 4am when I was done. He knows I am a sexual abuse survivor and now he can read this book and the weight of trying to describe on my own what that’s like is lighter because Chanel has sacrificed yet again.Lastly, I want to say this book was very healing for my sense of self esteem. It’s hard to explain why but hearing ways she has reclaimed herself thru the endless war with herself as a victim mirrors my fight also. Her validation journey helps me access more firmly my own validation. I cried more happy healing tears than sad tears. I will never forget this book.
  • In case anyone doesn’t know what they’ve stumbled upon, this is the book written by the brave young woman assaulted by swimmer Brock Turner on the Stanford campus, an assault halted by two bystanders when they realized she was lying on the ground unconscious and clearly well beyond being able to give consent. I say “brave” not because of what she endured, but because of her writings afterwards. To become the face of this issue is a bold and courageous step. Now that we know Chanel Miller’s name, we cannot unknow it.This is her story, her version of events.Well written in a slightly angry voice. She’s entitled.BOTTOM LINE: Read it.
  • What I mean by a “book like this” is that I only read books these days while exercising and avoid any books that elicits this kind of disturbing emotional response, but I decided to buy a Kindle copy, just to support the author because this is something I can do directly.
  • Deep breath.When I first saw the article stating- Survivor in Brock Turner Case Reveals Her Name in New Memoir- I said “holy f*ck” out loud. I clicked the article and I had preordered the book before going back to finish it.When the day of release arrived, I was outside on the curb, smoking a cigarette. I looked up and saw the UPS truck on the other side of the parking lot. I chased it down, refusing to miss the delivery. I went inside and began the journey of reading this.Never before have I wished for the ability to reach through time and space to embrace someone. I settled for being curled up on my couch, tears running down my face, clutching the book like a life preserver. When I reached the last page, I didn’t want it to be over. It felt like a much needed conversation with a best friend.I don’t know how to put into words the necessity of this book. It needs to be required reading in classrooms across the globe. For the first time in a long time, I feel hopeful.I could not have asked for this book to come at a better time. As I approach the 4 year mark of my own sexual assault (October 9), I was crumbling. I felt like it was fresh- I was back to not sleeping, crying on the curb chain smoking cigarettes hoping they would help calm me down. Crawling into bed with my limbs aching at 3am.For this reason, I am so thankful for Chanel’s honesty surrounding the rollercoaster of recovery. My narrative changed, and I was no longer chastising myself for feeling emotions this deeply 4 years later.This downward spiral and subsequent ascent has all unfolded in the past 10 days. The breaking point for me was seeing the ignorant words of someone close. It made me wonder, is there someone out there thinking my offender was too attractive to choose me as a victim? Was my story not believed, simply because it has been so long without me talking about it? All this time, while I’ve been crying and doubting my own experience, have I really been attacking his reputation by events that “could not be proven by facts”?. Would I be viewed as a false accuser, who should be put in front of a jury? Am I delusional? If I see my offender running for public office in 30 years, will I be accused of running a political smear campaign if I choose to speak out?Writing all of this is terrifying to me. While I have often alluded to the trauma of being raped, I don’t think I’ve ever talked about it publicly like this. I know that it is shame that has kept my mouth closed all these years. I cannot continue to live in it, because I want the next 20 year old woman to know there is no shame in what someone else has done to you. That shame is for them to carry, not you. If Chanel can write over 300 pages, I can write a damn comment.If you’ve read this far, my advice to you is to rethink your opinions. Listen to your words before they leave your mouth, or rather, before they leave your fingers. You never know who is reading those messages. I think of the people that spoke with Chanel about the case, not knowing she was Emily Doe.We have ALL spoken to Emily Doe’s in our life, whether we realize it or not. I wonder, what messages have these survivors left the conversation with?To wrap this up, thank you Chanel Miller for being the lighthouse that finally gave this lost sailboat a glimmer of light. You are strong, brave beyond words. Your book is a game changer. Thank you for giving me a voice. Thank you for validating my pain, for letting me know it’s okay if sometimes I need to curl up and cry. I’ll tie my 100th shoe and get back up. Thank you.
  • I can’t remember the last time I pre-ordered a book but I was waiting eagerly for the mail to arrive today with my copy of “Know Your Name.” .This book is emotional, detailed, raw and at times, difficult to read, but it is an important one in this day and age. I was blown away at Chanel’s eloquent writing of such a difficult and deeply personal journey. I hope that every copy sold is a big “F U” to Brock Turner and the joke of a judge who gave his sentence. Chanel, we know your name, we hear your name and your story resonates with so many. I was horrified, disgusted and ashamed for my nation when Brock Turner’s sentence was given. I cried tears of joy when I saw Chanel was releasing this book, and coming forward. I don’t know you Chanel, but I am so proud of you. Thank you for letting us know your name.
  • Everyone should read this book. I have just read the e-book, but I have now bought the hardback. If there is one book on my shelves that I would want anyone to see, it is this. I am a writer, so for me there is a double benefit, not only does this book tell a story that has to be told, it also tells it as well as I can imagine that anyone could.
  • It seems the only reason this book has had any bad reviews here so far is because it either gives the reader anxiety (which I can understand if you yourself are a victim of abuse) or because it is not suited to an audio format. Neither of these reasons should take away from the fact that this book has been courageously written and is a sobering, inspiring and at times, a humorous read. It gives a fascinating insight into the flaws of the justice system especially against those of abuse and how abuse completely upends not just one life but those surrounded by the event. The book does not inflict hate onto men but it does for me, as a woman, inspire a wider and united belief that gender violence/harassment/abuse is a universal issue that needs to be further addressed. I can’t recommend it enough.
  • I read this in one sitting, it is such an emotional story. Chanel Miller is an amazing young lady and I applaud her for the dignity and strength that she has shown. This book should be compulsory reading in all high schools.
  • Chanel’s writing about what must have been a horrific process from beginning to end, is just phenomenal. I could not put the book down & was amazed by her composure, articulate style of writing. She deserves a medal for being brave enough to write the book, as well as seeking justice. Chanel, all the best to you in the future; this was unforgettable & inspirational reading.
  • What a moving book. Chanel brings to life all the trials and tribulations of being a victim, the second guessing of yourself, not believing compliments or positive statements. Unable to get thru the day sometimes or even get out of bed.The victim blaming and shaming in America is rife and I really feel for her. She couldn’t have known, that her attacker was from a well to do family that had always been protected from anything he did that was wrong.His refusal to admit that he digitally raped her is horrifying. He hasn’t learnt a thing and still thinks what he did is acceptable behaviour. Seriously?I admire her courage and fight, even though at times to her it didn’t feel like fighting and she wanted to give up. I feel you Chanel. Know this, we will know ur name long after his has been forgotten. I stand with you.
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